Thanks Melissa for listening to me, and actually, answering my questions and doubts. Well i gotta say that she`s really a good listener, and of cuz a motivator. Shes pretty strong on the outside, but deep down, i think she`s sorta weak too. (thats wad her blog said).. She gets emo too like i do, but sometimes, being emo, is not a bad thing. It somehows let u feel and understand yourself tru the quiet n sad time u spend alone. As for me, i think i have attitude problems. its like, so what if im moody or angry, it doesn`t meant that i could juz anyhow shoot my words or vent my fustrations on any1. and i wanna say sorry to karen. Its my fault to say such things, not being able to understand u n putting myself in yr shoes. im deeply regret my actions. im sorry.

Talked to Mel that same night, tell her wad i`ve did, n asked her how could i change for the better. well, she gave me some Bible verses to read tru.

Imitating Christ's Humility

1If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, 2then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. 3Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. 4Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.

Philippians 2 : 1 - 4

It might make no sense to normal people, but it sorta teaches u, not to be selfish. But to put others infront of you. Think in their shoes, n not onli of yourself.

Well, i may not be any super holy Christian, but i wouldn`t stop in becoming more like Jesus. I`m sure God will help me with everything. I trust You..

So, Mel, as i mentioned earlier in ur blog, abt the song.. its here. Enjoy, the lyrics are in the bottom..

The song which express how i feel for almost 2weeks..





"Dance With The Devil" - Breaking Benjamin

Here I stand, helpless and left for dead.

Close your eyes, so many days go by.
Easy to find what's wrong, harder to find what's right.

I believe in you, I can show you that I can see right through all your empty lies.

I won't stay long, in this world so wrong.

[Chorus:]
Say goodbye, as we dance with the devil tonight.
Don't you dare look at him in the eye, as we dance with the devil tonight?

Trembling, crawling across my skin.
Feeling your cold dead eyes, stealing the life of mine.

I believe in you, I can show you that I can see right through all your empty lies.

I won't last long, in this world so wrong.

[Chorus]

Hold on. Hold on.

[Chorus]

Hold on. Hold on.

Goodbye.

posted by Bernard @ Friday, July 27, 2007