I sometimes wonder, why in the world would i need so much and want so much things.. Haolian to ppl? Learn more things? spend more money? i don`t know seriously. its like, i`ve so much things i like for example, riding my bike, playing the guitar, bball, slacking ard like an useless lard. Shit man.. Its kinda hard, or shall i say im lazy.. Working, finding extra time to do things that i like, n get emo over useless things.. Well i told myself that im not gonna have a relationship now.. I wanna concentrate on my work, my career.. Its like, if im not working or earning stable income, its more like my father is giving money to my girl, instead of me giving her things she want. It isn`t fair right? Bernard, pls grow up.. Mentally! Yup, i listen to alot of emo songs every now and then, if not i`ll be listening to some super progressive,hardcore metal.. I don`t think that any Christians would do that. but, im not satanic or am i a satan worshiper..


I have to say, I am "still" discovering and developing the talents God gave me and God is using those talents in ways I would have never expected.. Its juz a matter of time, when will i discover it, and when will i use it. Maybe, im already applying it now already. who knows, onli God knows. Make me cry Lord, for your love.. Help me, to go back to you.. right beside you.. U never leave me nor forsaken me despite me being a sinner. U know my darkest secret don`t you? I really hope, that i`ll be a better person when i wake up.. Knowing my aim for the day.. catch me when i fall..

Dear God, please help me, make a way for me.. I know you would..

Take heart and be strong in the Lord for He is all-loving and powerful. He works ALL things for good for those who love Him and are called according to His purposes. Romans 8:28

posted by Bernard @ Tuesday, July 24, 2007